It's difficult to write a blog when not much seems to change, yet, not much is stable either. It seems that life for us is a constant wondering what the next step will be. A while ago, when I was still in the U.S., I had felt very strongly that God was telling me we would be in Canada some day. At that point I was not at all interested in the idea of going to Canada due to the cold weather but now I am clinging onto that word and making preparations. in January or February I should be able to start the process by taking the entrance exam for a 2-year Spanish/English translation program offered at the Glendon Campus of York University in Toronto. I would love to continue my studies in translation and learn French. Luckily, Glendon College is a bilingual English/French school so they should also offer a lot of opportunities to fill that French hole in me that is yearning to be filled. Toronto is a very culturally diverse city, has an on fire church that I recently learned of and came to admire, and just happens to be 7-8 hours from my home in Pennsylvania. All of these details make Toronto a very attractive city for us to relocate to.
Sometimes the stress of wondering where we will be and how things will turn out for us, piles up and feels like an immense burden on my shoulders. I attempt to let it all go and give it back to God. I know that we are exactly where He wants us even if I don't particularly like it. Every day that I am here, I thank God for Fabian and for the way He has worked in our relationship. While I have seen countless couples torn apart as they try to make it through the immigration process, it's quite obvious to me that this whole situation has strengthened our bond. Our trust and respect for each other has grown, we are able to more quickly work through issues that arise, and don't take each other for granted. Now, all we can do is walk forward and follow God's leading. If we come to a dead end we will simply turn around and search for another way out until we find a path that is open. I'm thanking God He knows what He's doing, and that He is an expert when it comes to working with "the impossible".
Well, this blog feels a bit blah to me but sometimes we have to write about the blah things that reflect the reality of life for the moment. We really are blessed and recognize our blessings despite our various frustrations. I am including some photographs from a recent party held in the street at my in-law's house. This was in celebration of three people's birthdays: Ulises (Fabian's brother shown in a picture with his wife and three children), Adrian (married to Fabian's sister, Mimi - they are pictured together and I am in a separate picture with their son, Jurgen) and Fabian (my husband of course - hopefully you can tell which one he is in the pictures :) )
Thanks for your prayer support!
Love and blessings,
Alicia
P.S. This is a verse I have been meditating on lately: "Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord, is my strength and my song; he has become my salvation." Isaiah 12:2 Throughout all of this, God has become my everything and I pray I will continue to rely on Him even in the future when our life has become more successful and stable.
